Warning: the following is a whole lot of rambling from an exhausted empty nester trying to get here groove back LOLSome of you might be wondering what in the world is happening over here.
Well, Life's been a little bit quiter this side of hump day. Last few days I have been chillin' and trying to be at peace with myself and hubby.
The aftershock is not pleasant for me or my friends and family. Whilst I really don't know how he's feeling I can only imagine it must be confusing for him.
It doesn't matter how hard you try to keep others at a distance they will find you in time of need. Thank goodness!!!
We just need to open our arms to them.
Change is inevitable....they say.
Some of us cope with change and disruptions in our life and some of us find it mindblowing.
Me? I have learnt to cope with changes in my life, expect the unexpected and the outcome won't seem so frightening.
Hubby? Well he doesn't cope at all, doesn't like being out of his 'comfort zone'.
The recent move has been another major disruption to his life but then to have to face the reality of his only daughter growing up and sadly having to play second best to her boyfriend is not a comforting fact he wants to face.
Over the years, my circumstances and view of life in general has changed a lot particularly since Mother's Day 1996 after I was told I had cancer. For ten years after you have cancer you need follow up visits and tests to make sure it 'really has gone', you plead with God A LOT and ask him to please keep me alive until the girls have 'grown up' and you have little tolerance for people that complain about money and trivial stuff ALL the time.
Well, Life's been a little bit quiter this side of hump day. Last few days I have been chillin' and trying to be at peace with myself and hubby.
The aftershock is not pleasant for me or my friends and family. Whilst I really don't know how he's feeling I can only imagine it must be confusing for him.
It doesn't matter how hard you try to keep others at a distance they will find you in time of need. Thank goodness!!!
We just need to open our arms to them.
Change is inevitable....they say.
Some of us cope with change and disruptions in our life and some of us find it mindblowing.
Me? I have learnt to cope with changes in my life, expect the unexpected and the outcome won't seem so frightening.
Hubby? Well he doesn't cope at all, doesn't like being out of his 'comfort zone'.
The recent move has been another major disruption to his life but then to have to face the reality of his only daughter growing up and sadly having to play second best to her boyfriend is not a comforting fact he wants to face.
Over the years, my circumstances and view of life in general has changed a lot particularly since Mother's Day 1996 after I was told I had cancer. For ten years after you have cancer you need follow up visits and tests to make sure it 'really has gone', you plead with God A LOT and ask him to please keep me alive until the girls have 'grown up' and you have little tolerance for people that complain about money and trivial stuff ALL the time.
I am the type of girl who says If there is a problem that needs fixing then FIX IT, if it is beyond repair then forget it.
At the same time, I am committed and have faith, i am willing to put effort into my relationship where its needed.
I am happy with myself and will not allow another person to tell me how I 'SHOULD BE'.
You can only change YOU not others. So for now we'll see where this relationship leads, taking one day at a time I'll press onto the next phase in our lives, loving and exploring each day with open arms.
I warned You!! I better get on with living and let you all do the same LOL thanks for listening
my little flock of angels.
It's like it's your bday lol
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Your so right Vicki, in everything you say!!!
ReplyDeleteI hope things are settling down for you both.
Im pleased your heading for a mend and not a break.
I had no idea you'd had cancer!! Oh my goodnes!! No wonder you have em brassed the opinions you have. You only have one life to live and you can base it on regrets or what ifs...
Your girls look gorgeous in the Togas!! I think everyone should do a year of Uni just to get away from Mum and Dad and grow up a bit, and party hard and learn to live!! I wish my son would.... It certainly isn't a waste of time when its is spend finding out who you really are... and these kinds of events are all about that!!!